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Breakthrough comes just as it is time for you to break free from the pain of the trial and it comes as a result of God asking you to trust in Him again even though you might be angry with Him because of how things turned out. Breaking free is not something that happens automatically, it is a voluntary action that includes a choice to move forward and begin to live again. Living does not happen as you are mourning, and cannot take place when you are so deep in despair that you see nothing but darkness; living begins when you decide to submit yourself unto the light once again.
You also must be ready to move forward. Moving forward has a plethora of meaning and can manifest in a variety of ways, but it will all include the will of God. Moving forward does not mean neglecting His voice or turning your back to His way, it means extending yourself to Him once again, trusting that He will not lead you anywhere He has not already walked and believing that His purpose in going ahead of you was to prepare the way.
God is calling out to you, but you are so engulfed in self that you cannot even begin to hear what He is saying. When my mind began to sing those songs of comfort as I lay on that floor, I initially ignored them because I just knew that the words were a lie. There is no way that God could care about my tears if He was not willing to do the one thing that could make them stop. He could not care about my tears and still have me embark upon a journey knowing it would end in such a way. These are the lies the enemy was whispering in my ear as my mind attempted to engage in inner healing prayer and intercede upon my behalf.
My turning point was in recognizing that those thoughts were the voice of the enemy and it was in that moment I decided to get up and open my Bible. I went into fight mode and recited Job 13:15 to myself, “Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him”. There was something so much greater happening in the spiritual realm than the crucifixion that had just taken place. God was preparing to do something so much greater and it was in that truth that I needed to place my trust. I was obedient in aligning my will to His and followed the instructions provided in His word spoken directly to me. More than that, I was obedient to the written word and His written word states that He rewards the righteous and that He cannot lie, so why would I believe that though the promise was not manifest in this time it would not manifest at all? Man does not have the final say, God does and it was in Him that I needed to place my trust. God has never been a liar nor has He failed me and there was no way you could lead me to believe that He would start now.
Prayer: Father I trust you. I have no clue where this is going to go or what you are intending to do but I trust you. I am heartbroken, I am hurt, I feel deflated and I am in complete and utter shock but I thank you for waking me up. Show me what it is that you have for me to learn. Though I don’t know where I go from here, I am thankful that you have shown yourself faithful and that you walk before me. I know greatness is to come and I thank you in advance for all that you are about to do. Amen.