Focus Verse: God may kill me, but still I will trust him; Job 13:15a (CEV)
Do you remember what it was like when you first liked someone? Everything had to be perfect. You wanted to make certain that everything you did and said was just right. You had to be flawless for that person.
Then after a while, the newness begins to wear off and you no longer felt like you have to put on a facade. The real you began to show and not your representative. Because you had gotten comfortable, you allowed yourself to be vulnerable with that person. You all grow closer and then the unthinkable happens, they disappoint you. You were heart broken.
The epitome of a real relationship.
This same thing holds true with our relationship with Christ. I remember when I first accepted Jesus and decided to follow Him. Everything was perfect, He began to change my life. I couldn’t wait to spend time with Him. I tried to pray really cute impressive prayers. It was great! And then after a while, the newness began to wear off and Tiffani, outside of Christ, started to reveal herself much more. Things got real and we honestly began to grow together. I found myself becoming more vulnerable and open to dealing with the condition of my heart. And then just like in a human relationship, there was disappointment, heartbreak, and even anger. No longer was I concerned with appearing perfect, I wanted to tell Him how I felt, how He hurt me, how I couldn’t believe He would do that to me.
It’s not until you get close to God that you begin to feel the pain of being hurt by Him. Often times as Christians, we don’t feel like God should hurt us. But how else would He ever get us to look like His Son if He didn’t? However, we can be encouraged because we know that God uses everything to work together for the good of those who love Him and are called for His purpose, Romans 8:28.
Prayer: God, Thank You for the opportunity to truly know You. There have been times in our walk together that I have experienced true pain and disappointment. I thank You that the pain did not come without a purpose and that it’s all a part of Your plan for me to look more like Your Son. I accept whatever You bring my way because I know it is meant for my good. In the mighty name of Jesus, Amen!