For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but one who in every respect has been tempted as we are, yet without sin. Hebrews 4:15 (ESV)
Be angry and do not sin; Ephesians 4:26a (ESV)
It had hit me. I woke up out of my sleep and realized, I’m angry towards God. I had never felt this emotion before. And honestly, for so long, I wasn’t aware that this was my feeling towards Him. I had continued my service in ministry, continued to thank Him for being God in my life, I even praised Him corporately and privately. However, that didn’t change the fact that I was angry with Him. But I was now at the first step, admitting it.
How did I get here, I questioned? What got me to the point where I was angry and wasn’t even aware of it? I had to go back and evaluate some things in the past.
The conclusion: I had not been addressing issues, that were dear to my heart, and how they made me feel.
This can happen a couple of ways. If we are not careful, Christians, working in ministry, can be so focused on the ministry, while totally disregarding what’s going on in their own personal lives. Additionally, sometimes, we just choose not to address our feelings. I have been guilty of both of these examples.
The first step to recovering from anger towards God is to simply recognize it and admit it. Be willing to address your feelings, they are valid. I have heard a number of times that as Christians, we aren’t supposed to operate in our feelings. And this is true, our feelings, as humans, change so often that it is not wise to make decisions based solely on our feelings. However, it is very important that we address our feelings and how something makes us feel, in a healthy way. This is essential to a healthy emotional and spiritual life.
Have you ever experiences anger towards God? This is a perfectly normal emotion. What steps did you take in recovering?
Tomorrow we will discuss part two of recovering from anger towards God.
Prayer: Father, thank You so much for this revelation. So many times I just let my feelings pass not really addressing them. Thank You for reminding me of the validity of my feelings and how it is important that I address them in a healthy way. As I continue this walk with You, help me to identify how I am feeling so I can in return address my feelings. In the name of Jesus, Amen!